Yup, it’s resolution time

Hello all,
I hope your holidays,
whichever you celebrate,
have been,
joyous.

Mine were nice,
quiet.

On Christmas Eve,
mom and I went to,
a Christmas service,
at a wonderful,
Anglican Church ,
in downtown Montreal,
an open modern church,
where all are welcome.
Indeed, we felt welcome.
It warmed our hearts.

I took this picture of my fave church a little more than a month prior to the Christmas eve service, it has long been my favorite downtown church(and we have many beautiful churches and cathedrals) it's the architecture, the  church yard, the location, all of it, a whole, that I cannot adequately explain. I had never been inside before Christmas Eve

 

this picture of the interior of St-Jax of Montreal(formerly St-James The Apostle Anglican Church) I took on Christmas Eve 2016

I am an agnostic,
have,
pretty much,
always been.
But,
in these last few months,
I have felt,
adrift.

I am not miserable,
I am not suffering,
but,
I do long,
for...
meaning.

I suppose most of us do.

I have found that,
I disappoint myself.
I am angry and hurt,
much too easily,
touchy, prickly,
more than before.
I expect people to be,
who and what,
they aren't.
I have been a pain in the ass,
especially to my mother,
and,
my girl.

To be clear,
I have much to be grateful for,
family, friends,
good health,
a strong mind.
but..
I need more,
stimulation and conversation,
thinking and pushing myself.

I need meaning,
I need to make a difference,
to people,
to my little corner,
of the world.

I think the church,
might be an avenue,
towards that,
also,
civic involvement.

I became a member,
last year,
of a wonderful,
municipal party,
here in my beautiful ugly,
Smart,caring, 
engaged people,
I have met,
in it's ranks.
Recently,
we elected a vibrant, brilliant,
woman at it's head,
and when,
her victory was announced,
I vowed that I would,
work towards,
having her elected,
Montreal's first,
woman mayor.

So this year,
I will write more,
and work harder at,
it.
I will read more,
and, deeper,
think, reflect.
I will share,
what I am passionate,
about,
with you my 
readers,
be it,
faith, culture, politics,
and,
I hope you will,
comment,
and,
join me,
in a conversation,
about ideas...
life...
all of it

May the hard year that,
2016,
has been,
end on a soft,
peaceful note,
and may we all waltz,
joyfully,
into 2017.

Be well,
all of you.
Stay healthy,
strong,
hopeful,
and,
kind.

Later girls,
BB 

Author: Bookish Butch

I am a bookish butch in my mid early fifties. I live in Montréal and always have. I used to run a small used bookstore. Reading keeps me sane. My latest jiggie is photography, book project in the works, living the dream View all posts by Bookish Butch