Love and Hurt

It’s a lovely sunny day,

nothing remotely,

resembling last week’s,

‘heat wave’

no,

this is March,

nice March,

crisp,

windy,

March.

If there is one thing,

this unseasonably warm weather,

(read: hot)

has brought home,

I am a creature,

of seasons,

to every season,

it’s purpose,

it’s joys,

it’s time.

I don’t like this,

skipping over stuff,

I want to go,

from my parka,

to my leather jacket,

to my t-shirt,

and,

back to the leather jacket,

and so on…

the one constant?

My blundstones,

they can worn in any,

and all,

seasons:-)

It’s been a strange,

couple of days,

sales have been,

amazing,

which helps.

Customers and visitors,

have been abounding,

and at the same time,

two of the people,

I love most,

have suffered,

great loss,

great hurt,

deep body bruising,

it’s hard,

you want to help,

you do,

as much as you can,

be a good friend,

an ear,

a presence,

let them know you are there.

I’ve been a ‘strong’ woman,

my whole life,

butch,

you know,

but,

the last few years,

have shown me there is,

great strength in,

love and vulnerability,

leaving yourself ‘open’,

because only then,

can you receive the love,

you need,

and give love,

meaningful love.

I am ‘blessed’,

I know it,

I hope,

I show it.

I read this quote on face book,

the other day,

strangely,

sort of a propos,

and the picture,

well,

it needs no words.

Tenderness and kindness are not signs of weakness and despair but manifestations of strength and resolution – Kahlil Gibran
Have a great day:-)
Later girls,
BB

 

 

 

 

Author: Bookish Butch

I am a bookish butch in my mid early fifties. I live in Montréal and always have. I used to run a small used bookstore. Reading keeps me sane. My latest jiggie is photography, book project in the works, living the dream

7 thoughts on “Love and Hurt”

  1. Vulnerable. Open hearted. That’s not weak at all: it takes great strength and willingness. Hope all is as okay as it can be with your friends. And you.

  2. Hi BB,
    I posted on the first page I saw (I was googling about lesbian detective books). It was you speaking on the Kate’s (Delafield and Scarpetta). I’ve read both works and all series except Cornwell’s last book The Scarpetta Factor. After reading Scarpetta and being disappointed,I didn’t go for the last one. I was asking if,you had any other recommendations of books like these? I’m hooked on these type of stories. I’ve just started to read Ellen Hart’s ” The Cruel Ever After”,with Jane Lawless. What do you think about her and what would you recommend? Thanks! Yvette

  3. Hi Yvette, the two Kates are Delafield and Laurie R. King’s Kate Martinelli series, really good. I’ve sort of given up on Cornwell, another author who has a lesbian detective is Val McDermid,
    when she writes under V.L McDermid she writes the Lindsay Gordon mysteries, Gordon is a journalist and a lesbian, excellent series, Sandra Scoppetone also writes a good series, they all have titles
    that are spins on famous songs, it’s a hoot, hope that helps:-)
    I would also recommend a good new Canadian writer Liz Bugg I reviewed one of hers last year, Red Rover and she has a new one coming out, soon.
    Also last year I read Anne Laughlin’s Veritas, very good, very sexy, her butch sheriff is perfect:-)

  4. Ellen Hart is pretty good, but, to me Katherine Forrest’s Delafield and King’s Martinelli are tops, both homicide detectives, the first in Los Angeles, the second in San Francisco, very human characters, flawed but, really good, strong women. In my opinion, both these series are as good as Ian Rankin, Micheal Connelly or Peter Robinson, the best of the best:-)

  5. I can recommend “Hen’s Teeth” by Manda Scott – this is the first in a series of three crime/thriller novels with Dr. Kellen Steward – it is a well written story with a centre stage role for a lesbian protagonist and it is great suspense. You will find an equally well written Kellen thriller in “Stronger than Death” the third and last book in this series.

    “Blue” and “Blue Plate Special” by Abigail Padgett has another lesbian protagonist on centre stage – this time she is a former professor and social psychologist … and engaged in solving a crime – both stories are quite entertaining.

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