Giving up…the ‘evil’ weed

Good morning you all.

Ok,

so you all know,

I am having surgery,

and,

on Friday,

I had my pre op tests,

all is good,

but,

they convinced me,

I have to give up,

smoking,

at least a week before,

surgery,

and,

while in the hospital,

I won’t be able to smoke,

either.

This is a big deal for me,

huge.

I am a smoker.

You know how some people,

are,

chocolate people,

some people,

drink,

I am a smoker,

I have been,

for all of my adult life,

all of it.

It didn’t used to be,

such a big deal,

lots of people used to smoke,

but,

nowadays,

you smoke,

you are a pariah,

all your qualities,

as a human being,

are questioned,

because,

you smoke!!

It seems to be,

the most disgusting habit,

anyone can have,

personally, I think, judging people is worse but, that’s me

in public and media perception,

smoking is slightly better than,

thievery,

but,

only slightly.

I am not giving up,

smoking because,

of public perception,

or social pressure,

if ,

I felt those pulls,

I would have given it up,

years ago,

no,

I am giving it up,

because the pre op nurse,

made a good case,

how,

not smoking,

would,

be,

helpful for surgery,

better oxygen in the blood,

less risk of infection,

better recovery,

a good case,

not a judgemental one.

So, at the end of my morning,

when I met with an internist,

talk about judgmental, you know the type, just graduated, knows everything.

Anyway,

she gave me,

a prescription for nicotine gum,

told me it was free,

it’s not,

it’s partially covered by the government insurance plan.

All this to say,

tomorrow,

Monday the 9 th of February 2015,

I am giving up,

smoking,

I will remain a smoker,

but,

I won’t smoke,

it’s my informed decision.

I anticipate,

it being one of the hardest things,

I have ever done,

but,

do it,

I will.

and I just went public with it,

I am a smoker,

I just chose,

not to smoke,

anymore.

Later girls,

BB