Does enlightenment require frailty?

It’s been a long hard week,

the weather has been rough,

I’ve been missing,

my lady,

so much,

but, patience,

is a virtue,

and I’ve been,

working hard to acquire it.

The important things,

in life,

are worth,

working for,

or,

sacrificing for,

or,

sometimes,

just waiting for:-)

I’ve been looking over,

the list of books,

I’ve read this year,

and,

while,

they are,

fewer,

than last year,

I enjoyed them,

some are quite,

dense and deep,

some are light and fun.

In the next year,

I have decided,

to read slower,

to take my time,

savour,

after all it isn’t a contest,

or a competition,

I read for fun,

and,

for,

well,

for lack of a better word,

enlightenment,

an aesthetic experience,

is enlightening.

So for fun and laughter,

perhaps,

even,

the occasional titillation<wink>

but,

also to be moved,

to grow.

I suppose that sounds,

hopelessly,

new agey,

but,

that isn’t how,

I mean it,

I’m not going on a spiritual quest,

I’m just going to read,

better books,

and,

take my time,

about it.

Every month,

I’ll read something,

I’ve always wanted to read,

I don’t mean,

something that I think,

I should read,

because,

it’s good for me,

like,

Broccoli or War and Peace.

To end the year,

I’ve decided,

I’m going to read,

Lady Chatterley’s Lover,

because,

I think,

I’m ready to read it,

to understand it.

From the back cover:

Writing to liberate the generations who, he felt, had regarded sex merely as an embarrassment or a mechanical act, he said( Lawrence) about the book: “I always labour at the same thing, to make the sex relation valid and precious, instead of shameful. And this novel is furthest I’ve gone. To make it beautiful and tender and frail as the naked self is”

I guess I’m a late bloomer,

I’ve loved,

and,

it’s never been,

about,

shame or mechanics,

but,

frail,

has been difficult,

as has been,

vulnerability,

maybe,

Lawrence and Lady Chatterley,

can enlighten me.

Make me a better,

butch,

soft butch.

🙂

Later girls,

BB