It’s a new year…coming

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Well, the Christmas festivities,

are almost over for me,

we still have a family dinner,

but,

it will be on the third of January,

so after New Year.

It happens,

colds, viruses,

come in and create some chaos in plans,

the best thing to do,

take it in stride and reschedule,

just makes things,

last longer.

Been a nice Christmas,

not too much,

just right,

nice presents,

good times,

family,

friends,

meeting new people,

nice people.

New Year’s,

for me,

is an introspective time,

I like to look back on the,

year,

passed,

look towards  the new one.

2014,

was an interesting year,

it was chock full of new experiences,

big and small,

a time of great confidence and peace,

a time of fear and immense grief.

I find that at the near dawn,

of 2015,

I am stronger and happier,

than I have been for a long time,

and,

yet,

I find that challenges,

many challenges,

are stretched out,

before me,

of course all years,

all phases,

of life,

have challenges,

aging has different ones,

than did,

youth.

I will be fifty this year,

and,

my mom will be seventy-five,

big,

significant numbers.

A few thoughts have been floating,

in me,

my mind,

my heart,

these last weeks of 2014,

some have been there,

a while,

gratitude,

for all that I have,

and,

I certainly don’t mean material things.

I mean my mom,

my friends,

my love,

the freedom I have,

through them and their,

love and support,

and,

belief,

in me,

to be,

me,

I have this sort of belief,

that I am more,

me,

than I ever have been.

Odd, good feeling.

This year,

brought with it,

meeting and breaking with,

new people,

I think I may have found out,

a few things,

about myself,

through these ‘meetings’.

That I am both more,

naive and less tolerant,

than I believed myself to be.

I am not intolerant,

that isn’t what I mean,

I mean that I have less,

of a tolerance for certain types,

of behaviours,

than I used to.

I no longer have this,

incessant need to have,

people like me,

I believe give and take,

and respect,

civility and good humour,

are essential,

that truth is important,

and that it is,

a relative concept,

your truth,

may not to be,

mine,

and,

that is fine.

I don’t want to take on,

drama,

from other people,

I want to concentrate on me,

and,

mine,

my people,

my dreams and joy.

I understand that people,

many people,

have messed up lives,

full of past issues,

that makes their lives,

hard,

I feel for people,

and,

I think,

I am a good friend,

an ear, a shoulder,

and,

a few are to me,

as well.

I enjoy meeting new people,

adding new ideas,

perspectives to my life,

but,

this may be a year,

of looking inward,

for the new,

and,

the inspiration

Looking towards,

2015,

and,

my fiftieth year,

I feel confident and clear,

it’s a very good feeling,

knowing what you want,

who you are,

and,

taking the time,

necessary to accomplish,

your goals.

Here is wishing all of you,

a very happy new year,

filled with joys,

big and small,

love and breathing room,

and,

working on your dreams,

whatever they might be.

Massive hug.

Be well.

Later girls,

BB