There are notions,
floating around,
in the blogospheres,
and,
elsewhere,
that being a butch,
is somehow,
not really a girl,
stronger,
or,
weaker,
depending,
on perspective,
and,
besides,
what really makes,
a girl,
a woman,
anyway?
It sure isn’t the trappings,
of societal definitions,
doesn’t have much,
to do with,
heels,
dresses,
or,
lipstick,
and,
it really has nothing,
to do,
with perceived weakness,
being a girl,
being a woman,
is so much more complex,
than the likes of me,
could define,
jeez,
I’m not even sure,
I could define,
butch,
so woman?
Not a chance:-)
Funny,
my friend Pierre,
said something,
yesterday,
in passing,
it was neither,
sexist,
nor,
meant as a put down,
he mentioned Pinterest,
and,
how it drove him,
crazy,
everyone trying to sign,
him on to it.
I smiled and said,
I had an account,
and,
I was very,
fond of it,
so he said,
‘of course you do, you’re a girl, girls love Pinterest’
and I thought to myself,
hum, interesting,
I bet tons of girls don’t,
and,
tons of guys do.
The thing is,
some things seem to appeal,
to girls,
more than,
to boys,
and gender,
is so much complex,
than I could have imagined,
years ago,
I didn’t think of these things,
I just always liked ‘boys’ stuff,
did that make me a boy,
nope.
Does the fact that I giggle,
occasionally,
make me girlie,
or not,
I don’t think so.
I live my life,
quite happily,
with my butch attire, accoutrements,
and,
you know,
that doesn’t stop me from,
feeling,
all woman,
and,
all butch,
simultaneously,
complicated stuff,
gender,
yep,
but,
we manage,
works in progress,
one and all.
Weird ramble,
isn’t?
Feeling good,
feeling loved,
feeling like a girlie butch
Wink!!
Later girls,
BB
I’ve rarely felt girlie, much less butch. In fact, it takes just the right butch to make me feel girlie. I agree that womanliness is an elusive concept, to be savoured and appreciated but, perhaps, never adequately captured in words.
You’re right, it is perhaps never adequately captured in words, but, you know, I love a challenge, so, I might keep trying:-) I hope your butch makes you feel, girlie, womanly, loved and desired- adored, this is what butches dream of making their women feel, well…that’s what I strive for, being a better woman-butch for my lady.