Tag: meaning

Life is all about-challenges

    Happy 2019 to all of you.

    The first week of the year is done, woo hoo.

    Here’s hoping you all had some great holidays.

    Mine were lovely.

    Christmas Eve was church and mom and a movie,

    also fancy hors d’oeuvres and French wine,

    life is good.

    On Christmas day we had lunch with our,

    good friends.

    On New Year’s eve we were invited to a party,

    some wonderful neighbours of ours,

    had a party for a few of the neighbours,

    it was lovely, it was luxe,

    but also,

    super friendly,

    a great way to bring in the New Year.

    New Year’s day we had friends over,

    for lunch and on the 2 nd,

    I went to Burlington with ,

    a dear friend.

    So, my holidays were great,

    a combination,

    of social and quiet.

    I expect 2019 will be a year,

    of great change,

    and –challenges.

    I will be meeting shortly,

    with a career counsellor,

    makes me sound like I am in high school, lol

    I need help in going forward,

    career wise,

    I no longer want to work in,

    call centers,

    customer service,

    market research,

    or retail.

    I have done that,

    and I have the greatest of respect for people,

    who go to work everyday,

    in difficult fields,

    often.

    in not great conditions,

    and, with,

    little,

    or no -respect received,

    it’s hard,

    really hard.

    I find myself at a point in my life,

    where,

    I want to feel like I am making,

    a difference,

    like I am contributing,

    to the world, to society.

    I don’t need it to be easy,

    I need it to have meaning.

    Meaning to me,

    I want something that lines up,

    with my beliefs,

    with my core values,

    of social justice,

    of love of your fellow human,

    I want something,

    that will enable me to use,

    my language skills,

    my people skills,

    my life experience,

    I also want something,

    that will allow me to be who,

    I am.

    It took me a long time,

    to be,

    me.

    I like who I am,

    I would just like to be,

    an employed,

    me.

    I hope over the next little while,

    to find some answers or opportunities,

    and to continue on ,

    with my creative projects.

    Here is wishing all of you,

    A Happy, healthy, prosperous, productive,

    New Year.

    Be well, my friends

    Later Girls

    BB

    Yup, it’s resolution time

    Hello all,
I hope your holidays,
whichever you celebrate,
have been,
joyous.

Mine were nice,
quiet.

On Christmas Eve,
mom and I went to,
a Christmas service,
at a wonderful,
Anglican Church ,
in downtown Montreal,
an open modern church,
where all are welcome.
Indeed, we felt welcome.
It warmed our hearts.

I took this picture of my fave church a little more than a month prior to the Christmas eve service, it has long been my favorite downtown church(and we have many beautiful churches and cathedrals) it's the architecture, the  church yard, the location, all of it, a whole, that I cannot adequately explain. I had never been inside before Christmas Eve

 

this picture of the interior of St-Jax of Montreal(formerly St-James The Apostle Anglican Church) I took on Christmas Eve 2016

I am an agnostic,
have,
pretty much,
always been.
But,
in these last few months,
I have felt,
adrift.

I am not miserable,
I am not suffering,
but,
I do long,
for...
meaning.

I suppose most of us do.

I have found that,
I disappoint myself.
I am angry and hurt,
much too easily,
touchy, prickly,
more than before.
I expect people to be,
who and what,
they aren't.
I have been a pain in the ass,
especially to my mother,
and,
my girl.

To be clear,
I have much to be grateful for,
family, friends,
good health,
a strong mind.
but..
I need more,
stimulation and conversation,
thinking and pushing myself.

I need meaning,
I need to make a difference,
to people,
to my little corner,
of the world.

I think the church,
might be an avenue,
towards that,
also,
civic involvement.

I became a member,
last year,
of a wonderful,
municipal party,
here in my beautiful ugly,
Smart,caring, 
engaged people,
I have met,
in it's ranks.
Recently,
we elected a vibrant, brilliant,
woman at it's head,
and when,
her victory was announced,
I vowed that I would,
work towards,
having her elected,
Montreal's first,
woman mayor.

So this year,
I will write more,
and work harder at,
it.
I will read more,
and, deeper,
think, reflect.
I will share,
what I am passionate,
about,
with you my 
readers,
be it,
faith, culture, politics,
and,
I hope you will,
comment,
and,
join me,
in a conversation,
about ideas...
life...
all of it

May the hard year that,
2016,
has been,
end on a soft,
peaceful note,
and may we all waltz,
joyfully,
into 2017.

Be well,
all of you.
Stay healthy,
strong,
hopeful,
and,
kind.

Later girls,
BB