Hello all,
I hope your holidays,
whichever you celebrate,
have been,
joyous.
Mine were nice,
quiet.
On Christmas Eve,
mom and I went to,
a Christmas service,
at a wonderful,
Anglican Church ,
in downtown Montreal,
an open modern church,
where all are welcome.
Indeed, we felt welcome.
It warmed our hearts.
I took this picture of my fave church a little more than a month prior to the Christmas eve service, it has long been my favorite downtown church(and we have many beautiful churches and cathedrals) it's the architecture, the church yard, the location, all of it, a whole, that I cannot adequately explain. I had never been inside before Christmas Eve
this picture of the interior of St-Jax of Montreal(formerly St-James The Apostle Anglican Church) I took on Christmas Eve 2016
I am an agnostic,
have,
pretty much,
always been.
But,
in these last few months,
I have felt,
adrift.
I am not miserable,
I am not suffering,
but,
I do long,
for...
meaning.
I suppose most of us do.
I have found that,
I disappoint myself.
I am angry and hurt,
much too easily,
touchy, prickly,
more than before.
I expect people to be,
who and what,
they aren't.
I have been a pain in the ass,
especially to my mother,
and,
my girl.
To be clear,
I have much to be grateful for,
family, friends,
good health,
a strong mind.
but..
I need more,
stimulation and conversation,
thinking and pushing myself.
I need meaning,
I need to make a difference,
to people,
to my little corner,
of the world.
I think the church,
might be an avenue,
towards that,
also,
civic involvement.
I became a member,
last year,
of a wonderful,
municipal party,
here in my beautiful ugly,
Smart,caring,
engaged people,
I have met,
in it's ranks.
Recently,
we elected a vibrant, brilliant,
woman at it's head,
and when,
her victory was announced,
I vowed that I would,
work towards,
having her elected,
Montreal's first,
woman mayor.
So this year,
I will write more,
and work harder at,
it.
I will read more,
and, deeper,
think, reflect.
I will share,
what I am passionate,
about,
with you my
readers,
be it,
faith, culture, politics,
and,
I hope you will,
comment,
and,
join me,
in a conversation,
about ideas...
life...
all of it
May the hard year that,
2016,
has been,
end on a soft,
peaceful note,
and may we all waltz,
joyfully,
into 2017.
Be well,
all of you.
Stay healthy,
strong,
hopeful,
and,
kind.
Later girls,
BB
is a series of videos, discussions, shared meals, it is a 'course', a place, to ask questions, about faith, Christianity, Jesus, our purpose, meaning. Very deep subjects, in a welcoming setting. The videos are high caliber, well written, thought provoking, with a note of humor, this is not preachy or pedantic stuff. If you have ever had questions, about faith, about God, this is a good stop, on, the investigative path. It has been for me. A year ago, I participated in Alpha, for the first time. Church was a new thing, for me. I knew I felt well and at peace, in church, I felt welcomed. Alpha, solidified my sense of belonging, it also set me on a course, of reading and questioning, it helped shape some of my questions. Fast forward a year and I am, participating in Alpha for, the second time. I have grown in my faith in this, time, so much. Reading, prayer, worship, all has helped in building my faith. Those of you who read my blog, know, that mine is not, an unexamined life.
I reflect, ruminate, sometimes, less and less, obsess about, my life, it's direction, it's meanderings. Church, Alpha, faith, has helped me be much more, centered, calm, filled with peace. I do realize this might sound, a little bit cooky to some of you, but, hey, works for me I have been asked by my church, to speak, to share my journey of faith, it has been very present in, my thoughts Have a wonderful day, you all, be well. Later girls, BB