The First Week !

Hello everyone,

Happy New Year!

What a week it has been!

Armed seditious insurrection,

on and in the Capitol in Washington,

what a crazy freakin world we live in!

The pandemic rages on,

killing so many of us,

worldwide!

Here in Quebec,

as of today,

tighter restrictions,

and quasi total lockdown,

are being implemented,

we even a have a curfew!

Yes, I am aware that I have thus far used 6 exclamation marks, thanks for noticing!

My sweet Georgie,

my big ginger cat,

pictured at the top,

has been ill,

required a visit,

to the vet’s,

tests, meds,

special diet,

cost quite a bit of money,

and that’s ok,

because I want my chubby boy to,

be better,

and he will be.

All this to say,

2021 has gotten off,

with a bang!

This week, I felt a lot of,

stress, pressure,

and wondered if I would,

get through it.

Of course I did.

My friends, helped,

they listened,

my bff,

drove me to the vet’s,

twice in two days.

Friends, acquaintances,

kept inquiring as to,

Georgie’s condition.

At one point I thought,

he can’t die,

I can’t handle that,

I was being dramatic, there was no real danger of death, I am prone to drama, it’s who I am, sometimes.

I can handle,

hard things,

they are hard but,

I can handle them.

I have felt so tired,

in the last few months.

After my mom died ,

people kept asking me,

how I felt,

and I would say:

sad and tired.

And now, I still feel,

sad and tired.

I have accumulated fatigue,

I have recent fatigue,

I am angry,

I am lonely.

I am grieving,

I miss my mom,

I miss my life,

and sometimes,

I can’t see the forest,

all I can see is that big,

honkin’ tree that I seem,

to be headed for!

So, I need to stop,

to breathe, to look around,

I need to regroup,

cut out the extraneous,

keep to the essential.

I am alive,

I am safe,

I have a home,

I am loved,

by friends,

by family,

by the cutest ginger cat ever.

And, you all are all those things,

too,

except for the ginger cat, he’s my chubby boyđŸ™‚

Hold strong everyone,

we will get through this!

Be well,

stay safe,

stay home,

love each other,

and,

take care of each other.

Later girls,

BB

Author: Bookish Butch

I am a bookish butch in my mid early fifties. I live in Montréal and always have. I used to run a small used bookstore. Reading keeps me sane. My latest jiggie is photography, book project in the works, living the dream

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