Wonder if these boots are made for walking??

Ah yes,

another sunny day,

I think it might actually be Spring,

for real, this time!!!

This time of year is lovely,

it does create it’s challenges,

dressing wise,

too warm for the wool sweaters,

too cool for the light cotton ones,

time to put away,

the down jackets,

the wool caps,

out with the Irish driving cap,

in with the baseball caps.

I’ve lost some weight,

in the last few years,

seasons,

and,

some of my,

favourite things,

look ridiculously big,

on me,

my L.L Bean chambray shirt,

looks like I borrowed it,

from someone who is heftier,

don’t get me wrong,

I’m no svelte butch,

still more than chunky,

the gut, the gut, the bloody gut,

but, I am slimmer than I was,

need some Spring and Summer wear,

thing is,

I don’t really like Summer clothes,

I’m a Fall butch,

but,

I need some lighter,

shirts,

and,

shoes,

I don’t do sandals, white, white feet, dirty, dirty streets, nope no sandals.

So in the spirit,

of,

new paths to take,

increased heat,

and,

even,

down the road,

the ole butch,

looking for a job!!!!

I picked up,

what I hope will be,

a perfect middle ground,

boot/shoe.

Made of Italian leather,

slimmer profile,

than the desert boot,

rubber sole,

and,

made right here in Canada,

plus,

I think they are awesome,

These are Roots tribe chukka boots,

they are slimmer from the front,

.

What do you think?

You like?

Nice huh?

😛

So now all I have to do is,

resolve the shirts issues,

oh sweet Chambray shirt wherefore art thou

😛

Did I mention I have the weekend off,

silly butch,

that’s me.

Have a great Sunday.

Later girls,

BB

***I’m taking my boots out for a walk***

Here Comes The Sun

Today is Saturday,

and,

I have the day off,

wow,

I don’t remember the last time,

that happened,

amazing.

Of course for the next,

few months,

at least,

this will be a regular,

thing.

I was wondering something,

yesterday,

would I have accepted,

the decision to close,

the bookstore,

as well,

nine years ago?

You know,

I doubt it,

the last nine years,

of running,

the bookstore,

on a shoestring budget,

of long hours,

and,

occasionally very difficult people,

has taught me lots,

about myself,

about what I am,

capable of.

I have much more confidence,

in myself than I used to,

I know myself so much better,

is that just the result of,

aging?

passing years?

experience?

sure it is,

but,

it is also what you have,

done or not done,

during those years,

that allows the growth,

the people you have,

interacted with,

the joy,

but,

also,

and perhaps,

most important,

the challenges, the difficulties, the hardships,

the feeling of pulling yourself,

out,

up,

through,

that’s what makes you stronger.

that and the support of precious friends, family and loved ones

I think this experience,

nine years ago,

would have been harder,

I would have,

panicked,

easier,

I would have felt more of a need,

to justify and probably felt,

hard done by,

maybe even a little,

bitter.

Now,

I know the only one,

I am really accountable to,

is me,

and,

although the experience has,

had it challenges,

and,

occasional lack of,

serenity,

I did it.

The buying and setting up,

of the bookstore,

mom and I did,

jointly,

equally,

but,

walking away,

liquidating,

moving on,

I did.

With a little help from my friends

🙂

I believe age,

in my case,

has made me mellower,

more patient with human fraility,

less patient with human folly.

I’m in a good place,

plus I’m in love with her and I feel fine

🙂

(ever find that Beatles lyrics seem appropriate to any and all circumstances?)

Have a great weekend,

don’t look now,

but,

Here Comes The Sun

Later girls,

BB

Revisiting can be stimulating

Things are almost finished,

I know,

it seems I keep saying that,

but,

these things take time,

patience grasshopper

🙂

Still experiencing problems,

reading,

I mean books,

but,

I’m working my way through,

slowly, slowly,

On Equilibrium,

by John Raulston Saul,

a philosophy book,

for reasonably literate,

non philosophy types,

I think I fit into that category,

haven’t had time to read for a long stretch,

but,

I think I’m going to like it,

I rescued it,

from the fill a bag for ten bucks sale

🙂

Last night,

mom was watching TV,

it was blaring away,

and,

she wanted to watch some,

news show,

about terrorism in the world.

She asked me what I thought,

I told her that next to a show,

about bookstores closing,

all over the world,

that’s the last thing,

I’d want to watch.

So she suggested something,

on Discovery,

called:

All The President’s Men Revisited,

ok,

that was more like it.

I love American history,

and,

politics,

and,

that movie,

which shows,

the power of journalism,

and,

the abuse of power,

good stuff.

This show,

featured interviews,

with Woodward, Bernstein, Redford, Hoffman,

as well as,

John Dean and many other of the President’s men.

I was  young,

when all the Watergate stuff,

was going down,

a kid really,

but,

I remember,

as a Canadian looking from outside,

the impact it had,

culturally as well as politically.

I loved Woodward and Bernstein,

as personified by Redford and Hoffman,

they were fantastic,

a study in contrasts,

Bernstein-Hoffman all brash lefty Jew,

Woodward-Redford waspy meticulate calm,

working together,

as young journalists,

to crack,

what would become,

one of the greatest political stories,

of the twentieth century.

So good,

the story,

the movie,

filled with some great character actors,

Jason Robards,

Jack Warden,

Martin Balsam,

Hal Holbrook,

Jane Alexander,

top notch,

if you’ve never seen this movie,

do,

some of Redford’s best work,

as an actor,

from his political “Three Days Of The Condor” period.

This movie stands up,

even Redford’s style is impeccable,

corduroy suits,

long sideburns,

the ties are too wide,

but,

hey that was the time.

I’ve seen this movie,

many times,

in whole or in part,

I discover new things each time.

I hesitate to use the word,

but,

I believe this is,

a masterpiece of cinema,

a great American movie,

from the seventies,

a time of turmoil,

violence and gritty moviemaking.

It is full of thrill and intelligence,

and,

art.

Rent it,

watch it on Netflix,

see it,

worth your time.

You’ll

be entertained,

stimulated,

and,

learn a thing or two,

I did and do,

everytime.

Later girls,

BB

Quirky? Really??

I had a good day.

The weather was great,

sunny, mild,

real nice,

ah Spring,

happy sigh

The books are all gone,

I now have,

an empty bookstore,

weird.

I managed to liquidate,

an entire bookstore,

in seven weeks!!!

Well, three quarters, the last quarter, I sold to a local guy who sells used stuff, furniture, books etc, he used to come to the bookstore when we was a young guy. Nice to keep everything in the neighbourhood.

It would seem,

I’m better at liquidating,

bookstores,

than keeping them operational

😛

(I’m kidding)

I have to thank,

my loyal customers,

and,

the locals,

for helping me,

by buying lots of books,

and,

steadily emptying the shelves.

Just like I have,

to thank,

my mom,

for believing in such a crazy dream,

almost nine years ago,

I never could have done it,

without,

her support,

her hard work,

and,

her belief,

in me,

in the potential of books,

and,

the power of dreams,

thanks mom

Now, all I have left to do,

is sweep away the dust bunnies,

walk towards,

the horizon,

down the next bend.

Someone called me,

quirky,

today,

not quite sure,

what I think about that.

I know she meant it,

in the most complimentary,

way,

still….

For years,

I have referred to myself,

as an eccentric bookseller,

as in:

‘I can wear whatever I want, I’m an eccentric bookseller, thus, sweaters with holes are allowed’

but,

quirky?

Don’t know what I think of that,

do we take quirky people,

seriously,

do we give them respect,

do we give them jobs,

hmm,

food for thought.

Speaking of which,

I’m reading again,

my concentration is back

🙂

updates soon.

Be well, all of you,

enjoy the burgeoning Spring.

Later girls,

BB

 

new homes, memories

I took the day off,

today.

It was gloriously sunny and blue skied.

That isn’t the reason,

I took the day off.

I took the day off,

because my ole butt,

was dragging.

🙂

I sold the balance of,

my stock,

to a guy,

and,

I have been packing it up.

Big job,

lots of packing,

bending and lifting.

I don’t carry,

the boxes to his truck,

can’t with the hernia,

but,

I did pull it,

a little.

So, today,

I rested because,

I feared I might,

hurt myself.

I feel rested,

and,

it probably represents,

another day,

day and a half of work,

so I’ll be fine.

Some of my bookcases,

are gone,

some will be picked up,

this week,

some still need to find,

takers.

Two of them,

well,

more like four, since they are two sided.

are now at Francoys’

my friend the anarchist,

they look,

fabulous,

organic,

like they have always been,

there.

That is very special to me,

that a portion,

of my little bookshop,

should live on,

in the home,

of one of my dearest friend’s,

they are filled,

almost,

with well loved,

well read,

books,

and mementos,

many of the books,

have been acquired,

in my shop,

just as many,

not.

He and I are very happy,

about that,

fitting.

Some I know,

are going to book lovers,

homes,

I’m even gonna have, a set, in my apartment,

the others,

will live on,

to bring beauty and storage,

to different places,

I like that idea.

Most won’t be used,

commercially,

which I also like.

They will live on,

elsewhere,

with some of the memory,

of the books,

they have held,

and,

the company they have kept.

By the first of May,

they,

the books,

the pictures,

and,

even the dust bunnies,

will be gone,

and,

by the heat of Summer,

the cafe,

next door,

will have expanded,

the world thirsts for coffee, chai and smoothies, much more than for books.

That’s OK,

I like coffee,

and,

I like the owners of the cafe,

They are good, hardworking people,

the cafe isn’t a chain,

it’s local,

it’s independent,

and,

it is part of the neighbourhood.

So even though it isn’t up,

to me,

I’m glad it’s them,

again,

fitting.

Another few more days,

and,

I will be officially,

on vacation,

maybe even,

Gone Fishing.

Looking ahead,

to what?

Still,

no clue,

but,

it’s all good,

I feel fine.

Later girls,

BB

 

What doesn’t kill you….

It’s a grey, cloudy day.

The fill a bag for ten bucks thing,

was a big success,

lots and of lots of books,

went out,

to new homes,

to adorn bookshelves,

to bring joy and knowledge.

Gave me spending money,

for a few weeks,

I’m glad,

on both counts

🙂

Came home,

to a fish and chip dinner,

mom is good to me,

and,

sat down,

I was wiped.

I watched the hockey game,

the Habs got their butts kicked,

third game in a row

(:

They have been playing,

wonderfully all season,

like a team,

maximising what they have,

youth and enthusiasm,

but,

the last few days,

their mojo,

is off,

jammed.

The season is short,

because of the lockout,

so they need to turn it around,

quickly,

but,

honestly,

they’ve done better,

than any of,

the experts,

and,

naysayers had predicted.

Thing is,

we should never,

listen to,

experts,

and,

naysayers,

in matters of dreams,

and,

passion,

follow your guts,

follow your heart,

and,

of course,

follow your head and reason,

your experience,

combine passion and reason,

and,

live your life,

as sweet as you can,

as hard as you can,

and,

if you fail,

if you fall,

so what,

get back up,

dust yourself off,

cry, rage, scream,

if you think,

it will get the bad stuff out,

but,

don’t wallow,

sometimes you will have to rest,

lick your wounds,

to help them heal,

but,

picking at scabs,

doesn’t help,

onward, upward,

to infinity and beyond,

Buzz Lightyear knows!!!

So even if the Habs don’t win,

the Stanley Cup,

so what,

as long as they don’t give up,

and,

give it their damndest,

that’s good enough for me.

and,

even if some people,

think I failed in my bookstore,

I don’t care,

truly,

’cause,

I gave it my best shot,

and,

I walk out,

proud of myself,

of what I have gained,

of what I have given,

no one was swindled,

no one was stiffed,

no bitter taste,

no regrets,

screw the naysayers,

it was a hell of a ride,

bumps?

waves?

sure,

but,

lots of sunny riding,

lots of smooth sailing too.

An incredible personal experience,

a massively growing experience,

growth is what we want.

This experience hasn’t come close to killing me,

but,

it has made me stronger!!

Later girls,

BB

 

 

 

A few pics:-)

I’m at home today,

feeling sort of wiped.

I’ve decided,

due to popular demand:-P

to run an extra two days,

get as many books out as possible.

I wanted to share with you all,

a few pics,

taken in the last days.

 

 

Photo : One of the last photos taken of me, behind the counter. Taken by my good friend, Neath Turcot, photographer extraordinaireMoi

My friend Ken, the photographer took this one,

on the Friday,

my girl thinks I look ‘bookish’ in that sweater:-)

Books, lots of books!!

Less books

Looks positively bare,

but,

no,

there are still,

books,

mini virtual tour,

and one tired looking ole bookish butch,

Have a great day:-)

Later girls,

BB

I’ll miss it, but, I’m glad it’s over

It is a beautiful sunny day,

chilly and bright,

Spring,

one of it’s many moods.

Yesterday was my last day,

open to the public,

I may have a blow out sale for a day or two, you know, one of those fill a bag ten bucks kind of deal, but, basically yeah, that’s all she wrote.

The last day went well,

very well,

exceedingly well,

lots of sales,

and,

aside from the appearance of,

the usual turkeys,

a positive atmosphere.

Most of the gang,

my salon guys,

people who like to talk,

books and politics,

and,

who strangely enough,

are,

mostly,

men,

also quite a few,

neighborhood people,

coming in,

to show solidarity,

and,

to witness,

the closing of what is,

yes,

I admit,

an,

institution.

Hard,

to be the one,

to close the local bookstore,

down.

Of course,

I had limited options,

and,

I kept it going,

much longer,

I think,

than most others,

would have managed.

Still….

I remember when I bought the place,

and,

moved,

lock, stock, barrel,

and,

tens of thousands of books,

down the road,

I don’t suggest this as an activity, it gave me a hernia, literaly!!

I remember picking the pictures,

to illustrate the sections,

erecting my door of writers,

the door that leads to the basement had dozens of pictures of writers, found on Google images or from the back jackets of damaged books- poets and playwrights, novelists and essayists, Quebecois, American, British, French, German. Popular and slightly obscure. Some like Hemingway, Twain and Whitman, with instantly recognizable faces, some that customers needed to squint and read the label. I was proud of that door and  the idea of illustrating famous names with often, unknown faces. All the pictures were black and white, stood out, not too much, just right I think:-)

I remember picking the wall colour,

a sandy beige,

going with a strange,

peach for the doors,

to the basement and the bathroom,

as well as the window display,

I thought the sun would look good,

reflecting off the peach,

I sort of regretted it ever since

🙂

I was proud of my quaint ,

and,

yes,

dusty

😛

little bookshop,

it was mine,

I believe my personality was,

reflected throughout,

both beige and peach,

bookish and occasionally,

dusty.

I will miss it,

the look of it,

the sound of it,

the smell of the books.

the smell of coffee,

from the cafe next door.

I won’t miss,

the cold and draftiness,

the wool sweater from,

October to May ness of it,

the swealtering hot of the Summer,

the noise and the dust,

from the street,

the endlessly need to be jiggled toilet.

I will miss,

the quiet,

the time to read and talk,

really talk,

about things other than the weather,

and,

the corruption of our politicians.

I’ll miss the intelligent discourse,

and,

the helping people find books,

discover the wonder of reading.

The wonder of young people,

having confidence in your experience,

and choices,

the trust, the mentoring.

I won’t miss the people who forever seek,

the flavour of the month,

and,

who tell themselves,

they are doing you a favour,

by coming to your store rather,

than going to the big box bookstore,

they aren’t, you don’t have, nor want, Fifty Shades Of Grey!!!

The bookstore era,

represents,

eight years of my life

A period in which,

I have grown,

Immensely,

and,

also well,

aged.

I find that I have so much more,

patience about helping people,

and,

taking the time,

and,

so much less with pretension,

and,

time wasters and rudeness.

I have loved my bookstore,

my customers,

I gave them lots,

and,

they have given back,

so much.

RIP Encor’lire,

I’ll miss you.

(:

Have a great day.

Later girls,

BB

***I’ll publish some before and after pics soon and tell you about the dismantling, but, the bookstore era is now, over. I hope I didn’t bore you all too much with this stuff***

 

 

Last Day

Well,

today is the last day,

I am open to the public,

last weekend!

Weather isn’t great,

but,

yesterday was worse,

been a rough Spring!

I remain optimistic,

one way or another,

today is the last day,

let’s hope we go out,

with a bang:-)

Next week,

liquidate the remainder,

to a dealer,

whatever,

and,

begin,

dismantling and cleaning.

Wish me luck:-)

I look forward to getting back,

to writing,

about something,

other than my emotions,

regarding,

the end of the bookstore era.

I’m thinking you girls,

are looking forward to that,

too

😛

Thanks for putting up,

with my ramblings,

and,

soon,

the once ebullient,

BB,

will be back,

butch’s honour.

Have a good one.

Later girls,

BB

Being liked is a wonderful thing

All in all,

a good week,

an excellent,

weekend.

Saturday,

the bookstore was hopping,

lots and lots of people,

good customers,

good friends,

come to pay,

their respects,

to the soon to be,

departed.

People have been saying,

the nicest things,

Saturday?

A veritable love in:-)

Good for the ego,

good for the soul,

good for what ails you.

People keep asking me,

what I’m going to do,

next,

I guess that’s what they mean,

funny,

I have no plans,

beyond,

time off,

and,

visiting friends in Toronto.

My life has been,

so,

regimented?

Maybe not regimented,

but,

so,

about and around,

the bookstore.

I suspect,

that after the initial,

recharging of the batteries,

re-becoming me,

whoever that is,

will happen.

I don’t mean I’ll be passive,

but,

finding,

the next part of my life,

will happen on it’s own,

as I rest and work,

and,

live.

I’ve invested much of myself,

and,

my lifeblood,

into the bookstore,

some would say,

too much,

for what it has brought me.

I suppose from a,

future,

financial stability,

nest egg,

perspective,

they would be right,

the bookstore,

wasn’t the smartest of,

investments,

and,

yet…

it has allowed me to,

meet such wildly interesting people,

and,

also to see the cheap vulture part of,

people,

but,

I knew that,

and,

ultimately,

that isn’t important.

I stand tall,

not bowed,

strong,

and,

soon,

to be,

free.

There is no big nest egg,

or even little one,

but,

there is no financial ruin,

either.

I have so much to look forward to,

and,

now I can,

I won’t be spinning,

my wheels,

in mud,

waiting for it to dry,

I’m out of the mud,

and,

soon,

a shower,

a change of clothes,

and,

some new boots,

will allow me,

to take up,

another fork,

in the road.

On Saturday,

after an amazing sales day,

I went to see a friend’s,

photo exhibit,

at a local cafe.

It was marvelous!

Not just the art,

which rocks,

but,

the smart, thoughtful, conversation,

of good people,

who do what they like,

for not much,

in the way of financial rewards,

but,

you know,

they’re happy,

and,

they take the time,

to sit and talk,

about ideas,

about the state of the world.

They have battle scars,

and,

wounds,

in some cases,

the scar tissue hasn’t,

formed completely,

but,

they laugh,

they have righteous,

indignation,

anger,

even,

but,

also,

joie de vivre,

they carry on,

they live,

we do,

you know.

Life isn’t only about,

what you do for a living,

it’s mostly about living.

It’s also about,

taking stock,

and,

knowing,

that all the love,

friendship,

and,

good will,

that surrounds us,

is,

bound to keep us,

afloat.

I am a lucky butch,

people are good to me.

to paraphrase Sally Field,

they like me,

I think they really like me

😛

Be well,

you all.

Later girls,

BB